you just might find, you get what you need..

You Cant Always Get What You Want

 

Just took my nightly meds (Klonipin 3mg, Lithium 900 mg, Lutuda 120 mg, Ambien 10 mg, Lipitor 40 mg, Plavix 75 mg, Tylenol PM and some I can’t remember along with a glass of Merlot. I tell you it’s the ultimate night night cocktail and I would know after a lifetime of insomnia. Latuda is like nothing I’ve ever taken. For the first time ever I’m falling asleep early, like 9:30 – 10:30pm, but I’m waking up wide awake at 3 to 4 am. Used to be I wouldn’t fall asleep until 3 to 4 am and sleep like a rock till noon.

Anyways I just washed down all my meds and Merlot while watching Season 1 Ep 1 of Californication.

Now we all know that The X files are David Duchovny’s best work but I must say the pilot episode of Californication is a fucking classic. It even starts out with my favorite song by my favorite band. I swear if the first 10 minutes doesn’t put a smile on your face your either clinically depressed or you should join a nunnery and or monastery.

 

Star Wars!!!!! cue the theme music..

I was googling to find out how to reinstall and reactivate a Star Wars Authenticator app as the last time I played in 2013 I was still using my first iphone. I ended up having to call their toll free customer service line and I must say the service rep lady was extremely friendly and helpful. I rejoined the monthly paid player just to see how things go and I’m downloading the game  now. Unlike some other games I’ve always had a great deal of respect for Bioware and especially for Star Wars with its movies, gaming and other interest. Well it does have a pretty long standing reach.

May the force be with..me

Saw my psychiatrist today

I saw my psychiatrist today. I see her every 30 days now. She again raised my anti-psychotic (Latuda) dosage. She has gradually raised by 40 mg every month since she started me at 20 mg a few months ago. Last night I took 80 mg and its still ok. No noticeable side effects, no blunting. The maximum FDA allowed Latuda dosage is 120 mg. Today my psychiatrist raised my Latuda dosage to 120 mg. She told to call if I noticed any problems or side effects. I noticed one very troubling side effect of the 120 mg today already and I haven’t even taken one. When I went to the pharmacy they told my Latuda copay was going to be $80.00. Damn plus six or seven other meds I get filled there that are 5 to 10 dollars each. Thank God Lithium is only $4.00 because I’ll probably never come off of that.

I also asked her,my psychiatrist, if she knew of any good private mental health facilities of hospitals in Georgia. She told me I could probably find my answers with Google. I see her again in 30 days.

On a lighter note..I’m looking forward to my NAMI meeting tonight. They are my friends and kindred spirits and I’m on the board:. )

Now a little bit about my previous post:

I got my dad’s electrician to come over a couple of days ago. He couldn’t get lights to work either and while he couldn’t find a shortage he also told that he didn’t see anything out of place or unusual there and probably the light kit had gone bad. So he installed a whole new light kit and the lights work perfectly now. So I guess that mystery will go unsolved or until something else happens.

Follow Up

in a follow up to my previous post you can see Return to Me anytime if you have Hulu. I just finished it with a lump in my throat. Gets me every time and done just in time to get ready for my bimonthly NAMI meeting. I have no idea what I’m going to say tonight but just being there is such an inspiration that the words just come to me. They really are my other family.

Peace!

My local NAMI group. Hugs to them all.

About 4 or 5 months ago, actually around the same time I decided leave the MMO known as WoW, I reached out to and joined my local NAMI Chapter. In that time I’ve joined their board and become very active with them. I made lots of good friends too. If I have the blogging energy I will write about some of the adventures I have had with them so far. It’s a great learning experience for me and we reach out and give back too. Please click on brochure link. Sorry but I haven’t figured out how to make a pdf be on display like a pic.

– Van

NAMI Albany Brochure 2015-05